She - Them

Them

Her throat is hoarse and her eyes are damp and itchy. She is tired of screaming and not being heard. They will never understand what she is trying to say, who she is trying to be. She just wants to be herself but she doesn’t know how and they aren’t helping her. She can’t believe she is actually a part of them, that their blood runs through her veins. How can she be made from these two completely different individuals? It seems impossible that she is related to them, because whatever she says makes no sense to them and whatever they say makes no sense to her. They live in a bubble of anger, distrust and disappointment. She would do anything, if only they tried to comprehend what she wants to express. It’s not that she doesn't love them or they don’t love her. The love is there, but that is the only thing that is there, the rest just doesn’t make sense. How can these three individuals possibly coexist under the same roof in such close proximity? If they want to help her they should support her and allow her to be her own person, instead of ruling every action she takes and then claiming that they have let her do what she wants. She has lived her life worried that anything she will do, will be wrong, will not be good enough. And the one time she made a decision for herself they don’t understand it. Because society says that the decision she has made is stupid and reckless. But she did it for her survival; she did it so that her soul would stay intact. Had she stayed and continued to live in fear of society, in fear of them, she would have been completed devastated. She would not remain, not even a shadow of her. They tell her to work on fixing herself. But this is just how she is.