Lonesome.

Feeling lonely is something that we all experience in our lives. Humans crave for companionship no matter how much they try to deny it, we're social creatures. No matter how much we say we don't need anyone to get us through live, we do. Some say feeling lonely is all in your head, you feel lonely in a crowded room, it's all because of your thoughts. You are spending time with an amazing person, but that internal void still gnaws and pulls at you until you fall into a slum and you can't pull yourself out. You need someone to help you out of it, but you can't seem to find a friend, lover, or just anyone to do that for you. You are stuck and the only person who can help you is you. Being alone is not easy but the only way you can be with someone is if you know what it's like being alone, otherwise how will you ever appreciate the other person. Likewise if you want someone to appreciate you, you have to leave them alone for a while. But that's a whole different story. First focus on yourself, be alone. Embrace it, not matter how much it hurts. It's one lesson you have to learn, the sooner the better. Just make sure you get out of it alive.